dairies of a random mind

whatlifeshouldbe:

cherryzebra:

cmkz:

bubblecake:

notawallet:

d-agneux:

dark-driger:

saharali:

rezby:

fish—bones:

lionmanlannister:

horkbajir:

sosukeaizen:

iloveayanamirei:

Oh uhm wow

a 7

27

oh

51

i’m not fun

17 

party hard

17 lol

I got an 82 because I am a bad person but…. question 49 was offensive.

103. Go me. But woah. 49. I get bonus points for having sex with my wife?

20. Suprisingly uncorrupt

38. JESS HOW THE FUCK AM I MORE CORRUPT THAN YOU? YOU’RE THE ONE WHO DID THIS TO MEEEEEEE

2.

FUCKING 2.

AND YOU KNOW WHERE THAT 2 CAME FROM?

“Ever laughed at someone else’s misfortune?”

and

“Ever tried alcohol?”

I’m 18 and this is all I have to show for it.

WAIT WAAAAIT

YOU WERE AT CATTY’ NEW YEARS PARTY! WE ALL DID THE DRINKING GAME! THERE ANOTHER 2 POINTS FOR YOU!

49, but that’s just because fuck drugs.
Also yeah question 49 is offensive as hell, what the fuck. 

77 doof doof doof

122 haha, destroyed that

did this again and scored 159

thats a pretty big jump

People today are always unhappy

With the instilled government they’ve got

Whether the taxes are too high, no ones being looked after

There’s not enough money

Or people are getting shot

There is a discretion to employ the democratic way

But in the end you never get your own personal say

You just have to go with the masses

But unfortunately no one wants to get off their fat asses

So nothing ever changes, nothing rearranges

You end up with the same shit that you’ve been dealing with for ages

And the people in power just end up getting jeered, and boo’d off stage

Then the next leader gets up, promising change

But it’s a cycle and it all ends up the same

See the problem with democracy, apart from the obvious hypocrisy

If you have a view that is different to the rest

You’ll be pushed aside and ignored like a pest

But isn’t that the idea today,

That everyone is allowed to have their own say

There is no such thing as a fair governmental ideology

But I have one idea that could work possibly

The forms of government today seem to just benefit the rich

That’s not fair, it just makes me sick

Its like a fucken allergy

So join me on this path to righteous anarchy

The only way to go is with righteous anarchy

People say that communism is a revolutionary socialist movement

To create a classless, moneyless, and stateless social order structured upon

Common ownership of the means of production

Well fuck them

What about the people who give more than the rest

And give it all their best

But receive exactly the same as everyone else

Even those people who don’t even act on impulse

And how then, does one choose a leader?

For this idea that everyone is an equal receiver

What qualifies the person on top?

To do whatever they want

And decide on who gets what?

There is no such thing as a fair governmental ideology

But I have one idea that could work possibly

The forms of government today seem to just benefit the rich

That’s not fair, it just makes me sick

Its like a fucken allergy

So join me on this path to righteous anarchy

The only way to go is with righteous anarchy

(Source: whatlifeshouldbe)

I dont think understand how much you mean to me
Like honestly, everything I say wants to make you flee
But I only mean the best
Swear to my chest
Now listen here nice, and listen here slow
I don’t think you understand, it was from the word go
That I enjoyed, your actual company, and that you deserved everything from me
From a man that you’d never met before and acted so nicely
Also I like, the way that you trust me
And that you would tell me everything under the sea
And seeing that i’m the only one, that you entrust to be
The keeper of your secrets, the one that you love
And even within the peaceful dove
We still find things to banter about
That makes us laugh and better friends, no doubt
Cause this goes beyond everything I’ve been saying
So I hope you’re just sitting, in your bed just laying
Just reading this to yourself, and hope to god not praying
That everything will workout for the best
But first I’ll have to pass, this fucking distance test

As I look out my window, after a horrible day of what should have been study, but was haunted by torrential rains a weird hue has commandeered my view of the world. After this horrendous day, everything seems so beautiful. As if the contrast on the picture has been turned up and all the colours are somehow enhanced and everything is really colourful but dull at the same time. The shades of blue that emanate from the white building in the distant are strangely enchanting as they appear as though they shouldn’t be there but at the same time so natural. The sun is slowing slipping away, even further behind the clouds and the shade of orange that was once present has disappeared. Now lustrous greens and blues of the evening are appearing.

As cars drive by their head lights are being reflected by the damp roads that were once soaking but now have dried somewhat, giving a shiny reflective resin of the countless drops of oil that have seeped into the road.

Everything is slowly getting darker as night is definitely creeping upon me and I know work is imminent. Now that the sun has set behind the clouds, the all too familiar shade of pink is coming into play adding a whole new setting of the night. This shade of soft pink is just sitting on the horizon saying its last goodbyes before night comes in to take the late shift.

From what I can see outside my window everything seems to be completely still. Even the trees outside my window, which give me a nice balance of privacy and tranquillity whilst also letting me spy on the world outside that I often yearn to be in, are extremely still with the only movements that I can see are people or people operating machines and disrupting the peace. This just goes to show us that the people, including me, can never be properly in tune with nature because even when we believe we are doing nothing, the impossible stillness that I witness outside is untouchable by any human that I know at least. We complain when we have to stay still in one place for a long time, like on a flight or in class for even just an hour. But I am starting to believe it is when we have to be completely still, and when we can achieve it, we will be able to fully understand what happens in this world and how everything is fine just the way it is.

This allows me to see how that by making our environment comfier for us to live in, it will eventually make it so that, because we have always tried to ‘improve’ the world around us, the world will be impossible to live in.

So now as I finish this little piece up, the world has become nothing but dark shades of blue and green and will progressively get darker, similar to the way the world is heading because of the human condition. The world is going back to initial conditions, an unliveable place where there is no oxygen and only red algae feeding on the hydrogen present in the water starting again to release oxygen and once again creating an atmosphere that humans can live in and thus destroy the world again.

Everything is on a loop. Which is good and bad. It is good because it doesn’t matter if you miss something that day, it will come around again, however it is bad, because what is the point. If everything has been done before, why bother?

But I’m repeating myself…

It is known that god created us in his image. This is about the only shred of truth that I have to my theory but it will hopefully tie in and make sense in the end. For my theory to make any sense I am saying that sometime in the future we will learn how to travel through time and create horrible paradox’s that have and will saved/save us but without them we will inevitably fall.

My attention was first drawn to the Fibonacci sequence. This sequence is prevalent throughout the earth, even the entire universe. Almost everything is based on the sequence of 1, 1, 2, 3, 5, 8 and so on. This as many creationists will tell you is undeniable proof that god exists because it is a golden ratio that exists in nature and everywhere as I said before.

The big bang is also another phenomenon that the chance of it occurring is ridiculous. However even though it is just a theory there is evidence that it did occur from the background radiation and the fact that the universe is expanding. According to the big bang theory our universe started as an extremely small place and inside this extremely small space there was a extremely large temperature and pressure. When the big bang occurred the whole universe expanded which is an extremely hard concept to grasp. This is because initially the universe was significantly smaller than a pore on your skin. Outside this tiny state of our universe was nothing. Most peoples idea of nothing is space that is occupied by no object, however that space is still there. The nothing I am talking about is literally nothing. No space, or air or anything. There is an absence of anything including free space. Now when the big bang occurred, the universe in its small state begun to expand and thus our universe is in the way it is today.

Surely something was needed to start all of this off in the first place. Otherwise if nothing had happened we wouldn’t exist and we wouldn’t be here to question everything and destroy what we have. The Fibonacci sequence was discovered by Fibonacci but not created by him. What if this sequence was never created but only discovered through the help of someone not from his time. The human race and its nature is one for survival and comfort and we will do almost anything to certify our survival and existence. This comes to the idea that through our research we will discover how the big bang started or that it couldn’t have started by itself yet it did. This will require time travel for the human race to go back and initiate the big bang and therefore creating our own existence. This creates the paradox which requires the existence of humans so that the human race will exist. The key to this idea comes about in the Fibonacci sequence which is prevalent all around us, but was only discovered not created which give creationists the evidence to support their idea that there is an all knowing creator out there. But if this time travel exists that will mean that humans will have instigated this sequence throughout the universe so that it can be discovered by Fibonacci and we can learn about it. This means that there is the possibility that the human race created its own existence. If we did this means that we are our own god. This makes sense in a weird way since that we are now discovering new ways to ‘cheat’ life. In a general sense we are compassionate, loving, forgiving, and all knowing and in this way we are the god that most people choose to worship or say that they follow. This is also true for religions that have multiple gods. Every human is said to be different but we can still be referred to as on human race; however there are always some who are better than you at some things and people who are always worse than you at others. This adheres to the idea that there is a different god for different things. Finally in the holy Christian book; the bible it says that god created us in his image and saying that god is human and he is omnipotent because the human race still exists today, in the past and in the future. 

Obviously when something is the opposite of something it means the contrary things.

However when two words are put together and then the opposite is taken from them it can still mean the same thing

Take ‘forever alone’ for example (yes I’m a meme freak). If you take the opposite of this you would expect like never alone or something stupid like that, but let us think about this literally: the opposite of forever is never; which works with the first term I said, but if you take the opposite of alone, one example is together. So if you put these things together you get never together.

This means that you are always alone, no matter what because the opposite of it means the same thing.

So no matter what you do, you are always destined to die alone.

Fuck. 

So as I sit here in this airport in wellington I think back to the large amounts of times that I have flown before. I think today was one of the first times I truly realised the amount a plane can move even though it is meant to be a rigid structure.

As we were coming into land, I know I shouldn’t but I did anyway, I started to tense up and I must say I got a little bit frightened. We were lazily listing through the air swaying left and right all the time with an upwards angle through the air as if we needed to stop ourselves from losing too much altitude*. This was a bit worrying to me, and it seemed only me actually. So this was a little bit crazy as it seems, how I could be the only one who was starting to fret about this plane, moving purposefully through the air but with what seemed no control at all. Everything was building up and we came down to land still tilting left and right with a quicker and quicker pace, the pilot trying desperately to stabilise the insignificant fly which was being buffeted by the wind. As we were lowering down to the runway, the stress was building as the whole plane seemed to tense up when the back wheels slapped the runway, followed by a small bounce straight after. The back wheels made contact with the tarmac and stayed there this time thankgod. The whole cabin then began the rattle as the flaps on the wings expanded out, the cabin was rapidly reaching what seemed like breaking point. Everything was shaking madly and if we had landed only somewhat faster, about 10 km/h or so I feel as if everything would have burst open, carryon luggage flying everywhere like we just were. This is the point where everyone would have started to panic, because what they didn’t expect would have happened. I feel as if I could have easily remained calm because I had been analysing the whole experience stupidly, scaring the shit out of myself a little bit. Then the front wheels made contact with the ground and the shaking seemed to get worse, just edging ever closer the breaking point.

Then before it had started, it stopped. The planed slowed considerably after undergoing all that strain and everything was calm again. I was almost tempted to get up and celebrate, running up and down the aisle shouting joy and happiness that I had made it.

This was all in about the space of 10 to 20 seconds and I realised just now, as I’m sitting in Wellington airport that I have to go through this all over again when I land in Sydney. Hopefully though, we’ll be in a bigger plane and I won’t, like the idiot I am over think and scare myself to death again.